Into my World!

I've been thinking a lot about this lately. I've had plenty of hardships come my way. The loss of my brother and best friend is probably the most significant! I still remember that like it was yesterday. The pain is so intense, it damn near paralyzes you. There was a good chunk of my life that I literally can't remember doing anything productive. I was in such a deep depression and trance, I never thought I'd live through it. Then I found someone, who showed me what it meant to live again. He is my savior, The Savior. Of course, I believed in God, but I never fully understood who He was, and how BIG He was, and most of all, how much I NEEDED Him. I started looking back at things that happened shortly before my world crashed down around me and realized that God himself, put up a shield to protect me from even worse pain. I was the last person to see my brother that day. We were siblings, we fought, and we sure as heck, never used the "L" word around anyone, not even when there was no one. As he was walking out the door I yelled goodbye to him. However, 'goodbye' is not the words that left my mouth. Instead, the words "I love you!" were spoken. I can remember thinking to myself 'where the heck did that come from' and 'he's gonna beat me up when he comes home'. But he said it back, and walked out the door. I was a typical little sister, blamed everything on him, and of course, my sweet self could never do wrong 0:) so I never knew if he truely knew how i felt about him, and that I really did love him. Had those words not come out of my mouth that day, I would have lived with that guilt, regret, and ignorance for the rest of my life. THAT I don't think I would have lived through. He saved my life.

I've grown so much in the past 10 years. Its amazing to look at where I was then and now. I lead such a fulfilling life. Even when bad things hit, I know I'm going to be o.k. I love my family, my friends, I love finding the beauty in things that God created.

Do me a favor, when you think you're having a bad day... take a second to just step back and look at the big picture. You'll be amazed at what you see!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6035E4s9sh0